Badges of a Modern Girl
You leave behind a hue
A toxic bloom.
I want to know
more about you,
your essence evokes me.
Makes me wanna see,
your deformities, your aches
learn all your mistakes.
I want to be everything
you never knew.
I want to save you.
I am lost soul glued to an immobile shadow
Eyes always closed,
If I open them its a
horror I only know.
The smell of roses splashed with blood.
It's enough to lose my fading wit,
Ill never move on,
It stays with me
I walked out because she couldn't handle
the tragic words spilling out of my mouth.
I didn't realize the magic to release my minds
Without a doubt,
I knew I said too much, my brain was telling me to stop
but my heart was telling me what's the rush?
I have to realize not all are like me and can tell a story so
We will never grow as humans if we continue to come to conclusions and have small minds.
Let's come up with,
and have life transfusions
We can't fix mental well being if we can't even handle
Life isn't always rainbows and halo's
It can be void of tomorrows and gloomy tempos, fallen dominos
and leave a fucked up afterglow.
Isn't that how they make superheroes?
I want to sit with you
Inhale and exhale you
I want you to make me
I want your liquid beams to
I yearn to look
Back and know,
I can always bleed on you
When I’m blue.
There’s an emptiness
inside of me
I can never get back,
A place in time
I can't rewind.
It happened when I was barely nine.
Your massive white hands
on my tiny black body.
I have a blemish I can’t scrub off.
So again I plea,
Let go of me.
Your like a ghastly tattoo,
I’ll never get rid of you.
It’s a powerful feeling and indeed freeing,
reaching deep inside your soul to find self-love
you will leave many behind.
You will start to decline sharing your space with
people who don’t share the same state of mind.
Reaching for a higher love is never worthless;
in fact , it should be your purpose
even if you’re the only one that take notice.
The moment your realize you’re enough,
nothing else will matter.
You will be ready for new chapters
and even new disasters.